Tuesday, June 17, 2008

The Pretensions of Adulthood.

Sigh.
How can it not hurt when your father or mother dies? Hurt enough to account for swollen eyes.
How can it be just OK.
I detest my parents at times for being so strong. Pretending to be so strong.

But is it like desirable? Or am i just supposed to do the same thing at the demise of my daughter's grandparents!

I know; I shall choose pretension too. Pretension of juvenility.
The license to brood. The license to have swollen red eyes.

Way to go before i assume the role of solace provider. Way too long, when it comes to this.

2 comments:

ADITI MISHRA said...

NOW SWETALI, DIS CAN BE TERMED AS FORESIGHT TOO. AND WHAT FORESIGHT GAL?????
U THINKING OF YOUR DAUGHTER'S GRANDPARENTS.
BRAVO !!!!!!!
REALLY, ITS ONLY SOMEONE LIKE YOU WHO CAN ANDWO DOES COME UP WITH SUCH WACKY IDEAS.
BIRDIE SIS...
ADITI

swe said...

Foresights are healthy. They prepare u according to ur worst or best contemplations, accurateness debatable.

But is it that 'fore' a foresight to think this?

At 13 i lost my Grandfather, at 19 grandmother. And i have just 11 years of healthy 'procreative' (reproductive) age left.

Average age of Indian males and females below 70.

Is it too foresighted to envisage one's parents demise in one's children's childhood or teenage!

Now i m getting sulky too :'(